The truth is genuine connection is easy. It is peace. When you find it, you will know. You will feel seen, like you are being mirrored back to yourself like you are discovering a shadow of your own heart in another human being.
Slowly, through loving the right people, you will realise that human beings who are meant for you in this life will not exhaust you, hollow you out, or leave you feeling like you are hard to love. Slowly, you will realise that you do not have to romanticise the things in this life that hurt. You do not have to run towards the fire. Love does not have to feel like a fight, does not have to feel like a battle, does not have to wound.
Slowly, you will learn how to lay down your arms. How to walk away from those who will only ever love you in halves. Gradually, you will know that you cannot love someone into loving you or being ready if they are not. You cannot love someone to their potential. You cannot close their hands around your heart if they are unwilling to hold it themselves. You have to let them go. You have to focus on the people who bring you back home to yourself. You have to focus on standing up for that kind of connection, on honouring that calm, because it exists. It exists.
And I hope you learn to trust that because when you encounter and experience it, it feels like you are standing at a door and finally have the keys. You enter it with ease. There is no fumbling through your jacket pocket to find the right way. There is no desperately reaching into your bag to uncover the point of access. You are no longer banging your fists against the door, asking to be invited in. You walk through. Soundlessly. Softly. You take off your shoes. You hang your coat in the closet. You put on a pot of coffee. You’re home. You’re home.
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