Honour’s Martyr – Emily Bronte

The moon is full this winter night;

The stars are clear, though few;

And every window glistens bright,

With leaves of frozen dew.

The sweet moon through your lattice gleams

And lights your room like day;

And there you pass, in happy dreams,

The peaceful hours away!

While I, with effort hardly quelling

The anguish in my breast,

Wander about the silent dwelling,

And cannot think of rest.

The old clock in the gloomy hall

Ticks on, from hour to hour;

And every time its measured call

Seems lingering slow and slower:

And oh, how slow that keen-eyed star

Has tracked the chilly grey!

What, watching yet! how very far

The morning lies away!

Without your chamber door I stand;

Love, are you slumbering still?

My cold heart, underneath my hand,

Has almost ceased to thrill.

Bleak, bleak the east wind sobs and sighs,

And drowns the turret bell,

Whose sad note, undistinguished, dies

Unheard, like my farewell!

Tomorrow,

Scorn will blight my name,

And Hate will trample me,

Will load me with a coward’s shame?

A traitor’s perjury.

False friends will launch their covert sneers;

True friends will wish me dead,

And I shall cause the bitterest tears

That you have ever shed.

The dark deeds of my outlawed race

Will then like virtues shine;

And men will pardon their disgrace,

Beside the guilt of mine.

For, who forgives the accursed crime Of dastard treachery?

Rebellion, in its chosen time,

May Freedom’s champion be;

Revenge may stain a righteous sword,

It may be just to slay;

But, traitor, traitor, from that word

All true breasts shrink away!

Oh, I would give my heart to death,

To keep my honor fair;

Yet, I’ll not give my inward faith

My honor’s name to spare!

Not even to keep your priceless love,

Dare I,

Beloved, deceive;

This treason should the future prove,

Then, only then, believe!

I know the path I ought to go;

I follow fearlessly,

Inquiring not what deeper woe

Stern duty stores for me.

So foes pursue, and cold allies

Mistrust me, everyone:

Let me be false in others’ eyes,

If faithful in my own.