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Today it is all about how l lost My voice – Oh l do not mean lost it physically but after all that happened in My Life Before God came into Me l was lost and blamed Myself for everything that went wrong in My life well that is how My story went so long ago …….

It was that l was a person who as a child that never spoke My Mind and every time l spoke someone in family then in my life told Me l would get it wrong and being nervous of people l would inevitably get it wrong and make a mistake and be punished by my dad but l was even then trying to care and help my Mum & Dad to stop arguing over money and l would get punished for trying to help and it was so long ago ………

As l grew up l would be My brothers carer as My parents would pass any problems from ‘ Pillar to Post & Back Again ‘ and when My brother did wrong it was My fault and l tried to explain but to no avail it was not My fault and so l stopped speaking and gradually gave up ever explaining and so l began to lose My voice and that was so long ago …….

Now in business looking after people and trying to look after My Mother when my dad died just before Christmas and it was always the same year after year and after that l said nothing and asked for nothing and Christmas came and went l became truly ‘ Poor In Heart ‘ and it became so long ago ……..

Many years later, at rock bottom of my life, broken and battered and like ‘ Flotsam & Jetsam ‘ on the beach of life, l was left alone – oh, there were people around Me, but it was as if l did not exist, and that was when God called Me and entered into My Life and picked Me up and carried Me from place to place, and that was how it became so long ago ……..

Many many years have passed and gone away and l have learned that God had a place for Me to stay and taught Me all l have now learned about all that was done to Me and brought Me to a place where l can tarry for a day or more as l was moved away and with Mind & Now My Voice … That Adam asked for Long Ago given with asking nought but to help his people who are ‘ Poor In Heart ‘ like l was so long ago …….

So l have a voice, and today l write to all who read this today & everyday it ‘ Soft & Strong ‘ l can hear it now and listen to Me speak l now know for so many years God silenced Me and spoke inside Me instead in My Heart & in My Life l had so often said that hoped l could help as many people as l can and that led Me to a precipice of life and l was stopped by God as he had a plan for Me from so long ago …….

Now from this day before the ‘ Saviours Birth ‘ of the ‘ Holy One of God ‘ who died to ‘ Save Us All, ‘ l say today l give thanks to ‘ God For His Sacrifice ‘ and in Kindness & Love In Peace & Truth with One Voice In Me l Say God Bless You Everyone & Happy Christmas to You All ……..

AMEN