Fool ~

She is a fool if she believed that she was going to be different. It's pathetic to think that a man who cheats on his wife is telling her the truth. She's delusional if she thought she was important. She said it herself-second choice, backup plan, downward spiral bar, less to lose, temporary. You could have committed and I will never understand why you didn't. Coward? Knew it was wrong? Still, hoping you would be good enough for me one day? Does she know how much you cried when I took our pictures down? Does she know how much you begged me to give it back? What did burning it prove? What did lying about it do? I saw the pain on your face. All the time you're telling her you want her, you're telling me the same shit at the same time. Why waste your time on someone you only said bad things about? What is wrong with you? What made you that way? If only I could have shown you how far your shame would take you. You went for her only when you knew you weren't worthy of me. She is left with nothing and I'm left with your mess. I know I kept you grounded, I kept your life in order because look where it went. I gave you more respect than you ever deserved. I'm probably better off. You set me free most selfishly and painfully possible.